Falling Down the Upward Staircase

Falling down the upward staircase.
One step at a time, each moment of my life.
The harder I try, the faster it all slips away.Why do I try?
Why do I continue to fight?

Marvelously bright light at the top and vast darkness at the bottom.
And here I am, stuck in the middle.
Constantly fighting and falling.
Struggling to survive.

Damn you staircase!
If only you would stop moving, perhaps I might be able to catch my step!

How do you find balance in a world that won’t stop moving?
How do I make this downward spiral stop?

Maybe I should just let go.
Give into the darkness and all that it hides.
Let it consume me and end my pain.
Accept that resistance is futile and my future is lost.

But alas, I cannot give up.
I am bound by this staircase, this never ending nightmare.
This vicious cycle that is my life.
To proud to give up, yet too weak to break free.

And so I remain.
Trapped for eternity.
Falling down the upward staircase.

Despair

Lost in a sea of despair I drift.

No end in sight and nothing to hope for.

Sadness darkens my heart.

Numb to life and all that it holds.

Ready to sink, ready to give up.

The water is cold, and so is my heart.

Please take me now as I don’t want to be here.

The end is in sight, but not the one I want.

No turning back now, I made my choice.

Goodbye.

Lost Forever

Stress, anger, rage inside,
Help me fight the feelings I hide.

Sadness, depression, misery,
These are the things that consume me.

Loneliness, emptiness, sorrow, despair,
Should I go on I do not care.

Madness, confusion, spite, hate,
My life alone I contemplate.

Death, darkness, cold, gone,
Lost forever is my song.

Shadows

Sadness cloaks my heart in darkness.
I struggle to break free, but can’t find my way.
Like a ghost in the shadows, I hide my feelings.
I look for forgiveness, but ask for acceptance.
The road ahead is lonely and the path unknown.
Why go on, I do not know.

Sleep

No time to sleep
No time to breath
Rush through life
Search for everything
Find nothing
Tomorrow is today
Today is already gone
Left behind
Random thoughts
Tired eyes
Old souls
Special people
Disconnected
Extreme pain
Darkness comes
Life fades
Goodnight…

…Goodbye

Lost

Set a drift, lost in thought
Remembering the past, things were simple then
Lost inside myself, no way out
Darkness all around, no light in sight
Stumbling to find a way, to get back on track
The journey ahead, is this the beginning or the end?
No strength to continue, ready to give up
Must continue, must push myself cause that’s what I do
Will I make it in the end, only time will tell?

Until then, I guess I am just lost!