I am tired of trying,
I cannot go on.
I doubt that anyone will care when I am gone.
I am ready to sleep,
Forever and a day.
Death within inches, why do I stay?
Now that I give up,
I do not care.
It is time to end all this painful despair.
As I say goodbye,
Remember this.
I gave you everything, all you gave me was this.
I give you my shirt and shorts, all the clothes off my back.
I give you my word and my bond, all that I am.
I give you my heart and soul, all that is attached.
I give you my love and compassion, all I have inside.
I give you my strength and my courage, all that keeps me alive.
I give you me.
Sadness cloaks my heart in darkness.
I struggle to break free, but can’t find my way.
Like a ghost in the shadows, I hide my feelings.
I look for forgiveness, but ask for acceptance.
The road ahead is lonely and the path unknown.
Why go on, I do not know.
Burning desire I cannot hide.
I look into your eyes, why do you not care?
Love lost for unspoken reasons.
I cry inside, but hide the pain.
You smile at me, but my heart knows you do not care.
I hang on to nothing in hopes of anything.
Living a life I cannot bear.
One day closer to ending it all.
Please let me go so I can heal.
Days, weeks, months go by.
I am hollow inside.
I beg for strength, but find none.
One last smile before I go.
My heart is now broken, and so am I.
Goodbye.
Lost in the moment
Living for today with no sight of tomorrow
A smile on my face hides the pain inside
Short burst of happiness
Hanging onto anything instead of having nothing
Scared, afraid, lonely
Weeks, months, years go bye
Long-term happiness nowhere in sight
I push to go on…
I push to survive
Set a drift, lost in thought
Remembering the past, things were simple then
Lost inside myself, no way out
Darkness all around, no light in sight
Stumbling to find a way, to get back on track
The journey ahead, is this the beginning or the end?
No strength to continue, ready to give up
Must continue, must push myself cause that’s what I do
Will I make it in the end, only time will tell?
Until then, I guess I am just lost!
Memories of who I once was
Thoughts of loved ones from the past
Stories of happiness fade
I question who I am
A stranger in the mirror
Sadness in my heart
I look but cannot find
No one left…
… I am forgotten
Why does money rule the world? All day, every day, everyone of us struggles to make more and more money, and as soon as we make more we want more. How much money is enough?
I work hard and struggle to get by always waiting for my next raise or promotion. Yet every time I get a little more money some new expense comes along and takes it all away! I am always broke no matter how much money I make.
Does anyone out there know the secret to money? How can I ever make enough so that I don’t have to always worry about it? How do we all get rich?
I am a simple man, I don’t want lavish things. I just want to be comfortable, be able to pay my bills, and not have to worry about unforeseen expenses.
If anyone knows the secret to this, PLEASE do not hesitate to let me know!
Well, I am still new at this whole blogging thing so I am not sure if anyone is even reading this yet. If someone happens to stop by my blog maybe you could give me some suggestions on topics to write about? I have also been thinking about posting some of my poetry, but I don’t know if anyone would care to read it. I am sure as time goes by and I continue to write my blogs will get better and more entertaining. Until then, I ask for any and all comments and suggestions! Thanks!
Where to begin, I guess with a little background:
As long as I can remember I have had a different view of the world then most people. Not only do I think outside of the box, I completely live outside of it! I have strange thoughts, rare views, and a special point of view. Too often people tell me I think too much, or that I make their brain hurt. What can I say, I am complex and simple all at the same time. I live in a world that doesn't exist, yet society says it does. I watch the world go by full of puppets and wonder why other people don't see the strings. The universe is vast, most people’s worlds are small, minds are narrow, and life is never truly lived. Life goes on, but for me I watch from the outside.
