My Own Private Hell

I dreamt of you last night, were you there?
You made me cry last night, do you care?

The pain you gave me, destroyed my day.
If I knew you cared, I would ask you to stay.

You lied to me, hid behind my back.
But when I found out, my life went off track.

How could you keep that from me, hide him right in front of my face.
You should not have done that to me, that’s not your place.

But it was my dream you say, it’s not for real.
It never happened, it’s no big deal.

Yet you kill me inside, dying to be free.
If given the chance, you would hurt me.

But I stay anyway, locked in this jail.
This place I created, my own private hell.

Lost Forever

Stress, anger, rage inside,
Help me fight the feelings I hide.

Sadness, depression, misery,
These are the things that consume me.

Loneliness, emptiness, sorrow, despair,
Should I go on I do not care.

Madness, confusion, spite, hate,
My life alone I contemplate.

Death, darkness, cold, gone,
Lost forever is my song.

Contemplation

Life falls apart, like leaves from a tree.

Time runs away, yet I stand still.

I look in the mirror, but do not recognize my own face.

Who is the man in the mirror?

What have I become?

I am but a boy trapped in an aging man’s body.

I hope for change, but know it will not come.

Fate is what you make it, so I’ve been told.

I know my fate, but hide it from others.

A warm smile, a soft laugh.

Both help me hide my fate behind a mask.

Will anyone stop to look behind the mask, or will fate run its course?

Depressed Brain

Depressed brain of an idle mind.

I weep in sadness with a confused heart.

I hope for joy, but expect none.

Emptiness haunts my spirit and soul.

Devastation is the world I’ve created.

The pain I carry is mine to bear.

Each day that passes, I die inside.

When tomorrow comes, I hope to be gone.